I NEED SOME brain dump time!
So, I have decided to start blogging again, with a twist, as you shall read.
But first! An update for those who I haven’t ran into in forever! (Or, those that are new, you can also head over to the “about” page for some of my witty writing that is like 3 years old). I have gotten to the point where I drive my own car, live in like a house with people I’m not related to, and I have completed 5 FREAKING YEARS OF UNIVERSITY (I is soooo smrt noe!). Not that I know what I am doing with my life, which brings me to my blog topic.
I SHOULD BE HAVING LIKE A MASSIVE EXISTENTIAL CRISIS, but I’m not. You know why?
Because I am really okay with not having a flipping idea about where my life is going.
It’s okay to not know.
AND NOW! A poem! (because I went to Bible camp and it renewed my FAITH and also turned me into a poem writing weirdo. Not that I wasn’t a weirdo before. I was. But now I write poetry on occasion).
TRUST in the LORD with all of your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
And he will make your paths straight.
But what if my path is not supposed to be straight?
Lord knows I can’t walk in a straight line.
Perhaps my path isn’t supposed to be smooth, clear,
And with no steep hills or low valleys.
I was never the kid that knew,
What I wanted to do when I got older.
Perhaps because I grew up too soon,
And learned all the realities much too early.
I changed my major four times:
Political Science? International Studies?
Perhaps Economics? History?
And yet, I still don’t know the path that lay ahead.
But maybe that is my path.
To not know at 8, 23, or 45.
Perhaps I am not prepared.
And maybe I am leaping blind.
But maybe a better translation is not
“And he will make your paths straight”
Perhaps I apply the footnote.
“And he will direct your paths.”
I don’t need to know.
I just need to know who to follow.
Perhaps my life isn’t supposed to be straight.
And the fun is running, full speed, with no understanding.